The world is turned upside down as everything I’ve ever known and come to understand begins to fade away into this evolutionary kaleidoscope.
The liquefaction of my once spongy and absorbent mind has completely deteriorated under the pressure of constant submersion…
Until further notice, I have to completely disconnect from reality as the happiness, sadness, anxiety, heartbreak, anticipation, future, uncertainty, crying, laughing, yelling, anger, frustration and thoughts are really absolutely too much to handle for anyone in their right minds.
I just spent an entire 45 minutes of listening to Twenty One Pilots while driving from Lawrence, stoic face, not moving my eyes from the concentration of the road, flooding my soul, body and spirit with the echos of the therapeutic lyrics only to come to one single realization:
I need to stop.
Everything around me. Everyone around me. Every event, circumstance, coincidence, occasion, action and thought is overwhelming beyond belief… I can’t handle this anymore. I don’t know if I ever could…
I just finished with my sophomore year of college… and I have never felt more confused, lost and upset like this before…